Hi, my name is D----, and I'm in group because I am a partner of a sex addict and sexual anorexic, and I am healing from co-sex addiction, codependency, low self-esteem, and overeating.

I feel encouraged in my recovery today. I'm not perfect, but at least I'm trying.

This week for recovery work I finished working on Step 6. The one about our "defects of character." It was a real eye-opener for me. I sometimes walk around thinking I am infallible. This step is bringing me back to reality.

Acting out this week. The control thing with my kids. It seems if I loosen the grip on my husband, I tighten the grip on the kids. I hate that. It means I'm still acting out, I've just found a new dance partner.

Acting in this week. Again, fantasy (again, not s*x). I actually broke the rubberband this week, I suspect from overuse. I didn't realize fantasy was such a problem for me.

This week I felt really "ugly." Listing all of my character defects was hard, but at least it was an honest representation of who I am, and not who I present myself to be. I felt this way as a child every day of my life, but most especially in middle school. No specific examples. Every day was a living hell. LOL, ever see the movie "Never Been Kissed?" That was me...Josie Grossie!

My five commandments this week are in mediocre shape. I've been doing recovery work and making phone calls, but my individual prayer has been lacking. Been praying daily with husband, but I usually pray alone too, and that was absent for about four days this week.

My spiritual self care this week has been continuing to listen to that book called "What's So Amazing About Grace" by Philip Yancey. Awesome book so far. I'm up to Chapter 10.

My self care this week was taking a lot of vitamins to ward off round two of whatever my daughter has caught in preschool.

What I like about myself today is that I'm working hard on Step Six, and being entirely ready. I am nowhere near ready, but I am working at it honestly.