Hi! My name is D----, and I'm in group because I am a partner of a sex addict and sexual anorexic and I am healing from co-sex addiction, codependency, low self-esteem, and overeating.

I feel really bad about my recovery today. I've been acting out and acting in this week. This week for recovery work I continued working on my letter to God. What do you say?? I can't really think of anything except, "Thank you." The letter keeps coming back to thank you. I can't really work on that here until I finish it. Hopefully soon.

Acting out behaviors this week were checking the history on the computer once, shaming my son, and trying to think about what my husband is thinking. Acting in behaviors this week were eating, computer, and avoidance. I didn't give myself consequences. I think that might be why I feel my recovery is going so poorly right now. I probably should give myself some consequences again.

This week I felt really immobilized. It was my daughter's birthday this week and I wasn't able to give her a party because of my middle son being home recovering from surgery. I am still homeschooling my youngest son this year, so obviously he is home too. So, in a nutshell, everyone is home except my college boy, and the house looks like a war zone. The only one that can truly help right now is my youngest son, and I feel really bad dumping more work on him. It's crazy because I've got snowmen mixed in among the pumpkins that haven't made their way into the Halloween totes yet. Ugh...I felt like this as a child often. My parent's house looked like this on a fairly regular basis. Newspapers lying around, amid clothes and dirty dishes. I'm feeling like I want to jump out of my skin to run away from this place. I want to start cleaning but I have no idea where to begin, so I am immobilized.

My five commandments are alive and well this week. Forgive me for not calling. I'm still dealing with getting my son on the road to recovery. I have to remember that this too shall pass.

My spiritual self care this week was nothing.

My self care this week was nothing.

What I like about myself today is nothing.

It's my pity party and I'll cry if I want to...